换了新发型 买了新电脑 重新回到网络上 又与世界接轨了
看着小美的blog和她给我的留言 感觉她实在太能了解我了 可是这些我又如何道如何言呢 那就放着吧
倒计时还有九个月 过一天少一天 不知道到时候会是什么情况了
嫉妒和期待没有用 日子一天天过 不等人 时间无法倒过 时刻一去不复返
曾经有几次觉得 以为自己都不计较 不在乎了 原来都是假象 什么也看不下去 听着cd中的音乐 我的一切无疑暴露出来
我知道 我别无选择 该做的事情摆在眼前 畅想多次多次被无情的打击
我还能期待奇迹吗？purple

i dont know whether i m right.what i can do is just follow my feeling.
though i know sometimes i m just like floating in the air.maybe in
this world there is actually no definite right or wrong.enjoy ur
time.let it be a part of ur life.remember the mint flavor in ur mouth.
remember the little wind in houhai.remember baluster of fading blue color.

She is ugly, she smokes marijuana, and she is considered as a hag, she is the one who damaged the myth of this famous band… But he loves her. In the autumn of 2004, she held an exhibition for him, in the Queen district in New York, named it “When I am sixty-four”. In the gallery, voice of the actor was floating in the air: “When dozens of years pasted, I got old and had no hair, would you still send me good wishes and wine on Valentine’s Day? If I didn’t back home on a quarter to three in the morning, would you lock the door? Would you still need me? Would you still prepare me food? When I was sixty-four…?” If the star was not shoot, he was sixty-four in this year. He once said: I also want to be loved and accepted by society and not be this loud mouth lunatic pop musician, but I can’t be what I am not. The last sentence does show what he is and what he actually acted. Regardless of his proud band’s dissolution and frown of other people, he still smiled and declared, “I have left hand, as well as right hand. And I have her. Otherwise, she is not ugly.” He showed her his recording room, let her listening various kinds of sound and played guitar for her. There was a dialogue during their honeymoon, they lied on the bed, she bite the nails of hand with hair loosed, grinned and said, “Fortunately, I love you.” Then he responded, “Unfortunately, I love you too.” During the time they were together, he was abandoned by more and more funs from Paul’s (another member of the music band) to his. In the year of 1973, they departed for a while. At that time, he attended an activity called “Lost Weekend”. He made several discs, always got drunk, damaged the telephone box without any reason, acted wildly against law and public opinion. Eighteen mouths later, he didn’t want to live like this as a lonely single man, he longed for living smoothly and he needed one to love him, to comfort his sensitive nerves, then to let him calm down and composed. In the “Lost Weekend”, he record a song called “Stand by me”, in the song, we could hear his moving voice, sang “stand by me, stand by me”, he insisted that he must go back to her, there, it is his ideal. He started to lead a common life as a man. After some time, they got a kid named Sean. From then on, he was just an average man who took his kid and wife wondering on the street. He no longer was Rock genius, no longer as odd as before. He was only a woman’s husband, and a kid’s father. But no one can really understand them. They can’t imagine what the music is, music that he and she cooperated. Though what happened is a totally mess, is so incredible and unacceptable, but finally on the day of 8th, in December the 1980, all of this came to an end. With a sound of shot, all illustration disappeared. After his death, she said to the world: “what I know of him is not like what you know through the media, for that he is only mine. He is splendid, he is happy; he is full of anger and sadness. I love him deeply. Living with him, I am full of felicity.” Yes, they are John Lennon and Yoko Ono, they are not the so-called model husband and wife. But you should understand, emotion, especially love can’t explain, only the two who involve in can know. And the real love can keep up, no matter what other people think and talk about. Only give this story to all of you on this special day, wish you could enjoy your Valentine’s Day! Remember, “treasure” and “stick to”.

快乐越简易，生命越顽强；快乐越奢侈，生命也就越发不堪忍受 有这样一个测试题，问：你选择被汽车撞死，还是被卡车撞死？答案是：两者都不选。。。 生来就有翅膀的人，累的时候倦的时候，会在地上走走，但最后还是要飞起来才会幸福。 爱情是什么？这个问题很酸，回答也很多，墨西哥有一部很出色的电影,对这个问题给了一个答案：《爱情是狗娘》，很糙很横很无理也很有趣的一个回答。在《我的野蛮女友》里有这么一段话，是男孩对相亲男子说的：。。。她喜欢写作，你要鼓励她；她的鞋不合适夹脚时，你要跟她换鞋穿；她喜欢打人，打你的时候，你要装着很疼，如果真的很疼，你要装着不疼。。。爱情其实就是这么琐细，这么唠叨。爱情不是概念，不是可以分析的东西。

Just have a general look at the people around you, the friend circle you are in and strangers walking on the streets, working with you at the same company, there are an amount of people, in fact the number is not little, odd. We could also say, they are really outstanding in a way. Don’t pay attention to the group who are what we called them idiot, the rest of them, some are in some degree really good at a specific field. For instance, art, music, or even mathematics. Well, yeah, our protagonist John Nash is one of them, and he is as his tutor said is a genius, but only in mathematics. Maybe when I say he has the propensity to be eccentric, you will think it’s very common for this kind of people, because all they cared is their work, when ones career covered their whole life, they actually won’t care about what happened around them, they have their special way of thinking which probably no one else would quite adopt it, they act as what they like. People call them ‘mad’, ‘psychotic’. For some extent, well, it’s right. For John Nash, he is on the fringes of society. Mathematics is his whole life, and Princeton University is his whole living circle. At the same time, he is fully self-confident, cocky, on the other side, delusional person. He believed in no class, he thought classroom would make him blunt his originality. And he really want to have a glorious future in his field, so for a long time, he was obsessed with making a name for himself. We should say, he is really hard working. He lodged the Game theory, the center of the Equilibrium theory, in spring, 1950. He proved that in every game there is a best strategy for each player given the strategies chosen by other players. In truth, his theory would revolutionize economics, but when it was first completed, nobody recognizes its potential. Not even Nash, because the theory is so ahead of time. And when Nash joined the faculty of MIT，he was only twenty-one. But we could see he’s superior among the heap. He’s expecting winning the Field Medal, which is the top award in his field, but unfortunately failed. It was quite a great shock to him. That’s one of the reasons, and also for worrying his best years was behind him, a strange and tragic metamorphosis dropped onto him. He imagined that people from outer space were destroying his career. After that, he wondered around everywhere unsettling. That’s what he suffered from, Paranoid schizophrenia, his brain is disordered. As well, he had visual companying with auditory hallucinations. He always saw a little girl talking to him. At the mean time, the understanding of John Nash’s equilibrium at the center of ‘ Game theory’, by the late 1970s, it had become one of the foundations of modern economics. And on Dec. 10th 1994 at the age of sixty-two, John Nash received the Nobel Prize with the help of economists. During these days, John himself willed to recover and one day, he finally spotted that the girl always stood ahead of him was actually not exists. Because as John grew older and older, that girl hadn’t change any, she was not growing. That’s his whole tough and incredible life. He eventually won himself. He fulfilled his goal. And around me, these are quite quantity of people are odd. Maybe it’s, like other people says, the symbol of an artists. But in my point of view, it’s only an exterior mark, in the interior, like me, sometimes lose the destination of life. For me, for a while, I can’t find what should I do and suddenly I found I own nothing, which is really obsessing me. It seems I couldn’t see my future, it’s so vague that cannot grab. Everyday, I am busy in something uncertain and maybe there is no aim to do so, but when at night I lay down on bed, I thought about my day, I had a strong feeling that I achieved nothing. Well, there is still no answer, but I hope one day I could manage that!

今天和妈妈吵架了，心情非常不好，我不知道我所要求的，我所讲的一切是不是对的，我理解他们，但也需要他们的理解。不知道如何去表达。 看了tlm的中国画作品选，有这么几句话让我记忆深刻： 让你在搏斗中去看重安抚， 让你在呐喊中去蔑视叹息， 让你在意志中去选择情感， 让你在常规中去承受磨损， 让你在微笑中去体味庄重， 让你在回忆中去超越时空， 让你在平静中去感悟生态， 让你在向往中去觉到没有尽头。。。。。。